Tonight's blog I will deem Old Man Eddy, because for the
past two nights he has creeped me the fuck out. I believe it was last
weekend or so when he hovered around the handoff plane with those dreary
eyes of his and said, "Evelynn, do you like baseball?" I'm like, "yea,
I go to some Sox games with my boyfriend."
Unaffected,
he asks, "If I get tickets, would you come?" in a casual manner.
Confused, I stammer, "What, to a Cubs game?" And he says, "Yea."
I'm thinking, not enough information, so I say, "Is it like, a group thing?" and he just says, "No, with me...Here, gimme your number," edging back up to the plane where we hand off drinks.
I
swear man, don't put me in this awkward position. And, damn you
have some nerve. Because you're like 50+ yrs old and you've known me
since I started here back when I was 18. And now you've just gone and
made things weird by being inappropriate, which lets me down again. In
the past, you had even tried to counsel me on what route to take in
school
during one of my lunch breaks. Buuut now you've reassured me that you
view me as an object of sex rather than a pleasant acquaintance.
So now, I just feel awkward and uncomfortable because
yesterday, (a week after prior incident) you came up to buy a tea and
quickly asked if I had given you the wrong number. Phone in hand, you
reviewed the number aloud and I confirmed it, but then you repeated,
"847, not 773?" and I said, "Yea, 8-4-7." Jesus fucking christ. And then
you followed me from the register, past the pastry case, and up to the
safe where I was organizing the breakfast sandwiches and you were
scrolling through a screen of texts between my so-called-number and
yourself. It was then I realized you'd heard the last digit wrong, as a
2 instead of a zero. But I told you that and said, "that wasn't me,"
and continued my work. But still, you hovered, reading the newspaper at
the stand just three feet from the safe, like a creep. And THEN you
asked me something about Spain and Portugal or some country and soccer.
Like, "did you watch the game?" And I knew where you were headed and
quickly said, "No, I don't like soccer."
I guess some
might say I shouldn't have given him my number to begin with. And I
think so too. But at the time, it was easier because I was caught off
guard, in which case my natural reaction was to ease the awkwardness at
own my expense. I just figured I'd give him the number and if he
texted I would tell him that I wasn't interested or that I felt weird
about texting him in general.
So what I learned is I just need to suck
it up and say no the next time this happens. Set boundaries. The healthy
thing to do is set boundaries. But since many of my relationships
haven't been healthy, things go on all right until something like this
happens and I whirl around the circle again, wondering whether I should smile at male customers at all.
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